Interview Struggles

This post is more about me than about League of Legends but that's okay. This is my blog so I can have little side bars occasionally, right?

I have now completed two interviews and have three in progress through DMs and one that i will be sending a list of questions through email. I am really excited about it all. However, it makes me really anxious too. I have about 15 feelers put out and I am not expecting too many bites. That is okay but it's scary too. Also, making those requests was really anxiety inducing for me but I kept reminding myself that the worst that can happen is people ignore me or say no. I am really okay with it. No one really gets anything out of doing an interview with me! I'm just a nobody with a dream of getting to interview awesome people and have a conversation with them; hopefully I get to know just a little bit more about who they really are.

So it's okay.

I felt really discouraged last night. I started my interview with Gate and I felt really inadequate and like I don't know how to make sure my questions are always high quality and interesting.

There are a lot of different types of personalities and while I understand people well, i need to become better at shifting myself to fit the person. It's much easier to do out loud than in a DM. I think i will always prefer skype now. I think it will take more time and practice. I hope i keep getting the opportunities.

Thank you to everyone who supports me and gives me advice or talks me down from the ledge of anxiety. Love you all~ ❤